Pull yourself together, man!
How can you remember the past, live in the moment and prepare for the future all at once?
PAST: The weekend in Boston was something I won't forget, but can't let myself dwell on, lest I drop into a useless, dreamy state of reminiscence. I learned a thing or two though, so I'll try to carry those lessons with me, Goldenboy style. Study, study!!
PRESENT: Well, right now I'm at work. I just found out Japan will be "sometime in mid-July." I guess the only things that are definite are things that have already happened. Therefore, I will resume answering the question "when are you leaving the country" with "I have no fucking idea."
Oh, good.
Just as I type this I find out that my visa hasn't come through yet after all. Apparently that e-mail I got last week that said "we received Dan's work Visa and will send it over to you now" was a mistake.
Seriously, someone give me a good reason not to put an end to this bullshit and walk out the door right now.
(ahem) anyway.
FUTURE: Philly trip the weekend of June 17th-19th, and more immediately, possible Atlanta trip next Monday night. I love these little jaunts ... what I need to do is learn to stop coming back here.
In conclusion, I should try to take my lessons from the past weekend/24 years and apply them to the moment, in preparation for the future. Now I just have to find a way to connect everything.
HORRIBLE THOUGHT: Or maybe I just had such a great time as payment for something dire which is about to happen. Though, I couldn't imagine anything that wouldn't be worth it. All right, I need to stop dwelling. Focus! Move on! Life is study!
posted by bastardface at 10:46:00 AM
5 Comments:
Perhaps you should try getting out of the whole time thing. Sort of like Billy Pilgrim in Slaughterhouse-5. Er, was last weekend like being stuck on Tralfamadore? I will stop before this becomes uncomfortable.
Z.Monkey
P.S. Ha!
P.S.S. Have fun being deflowered!
11:40 AM
I would like to clarify for those not in the know that "have fun being deflowered" is a quote from Goldenboy.
The Schlachthaus-Fünf reference, on the other hand, is something that will be picked up by everyone. And to answer your question, we were not on display in a cage.
12:12 PM
Well, even if an attempt is met with failure, at least you're left thinking "what can I do better/differently next time" as opposed to if you hadn't tried at all, in which case all you can can do is punch yourself with regret.
For example, I'm thinking if I give up now and move up north or out west, I'll have to live with knowing I might have missed my chance to live in Japan for free for a couple years.
I say, you're bound to find that 2% sooner or later ..
1:18 PM
2% eh? Is waiting for something to happen to you the right thing to do or is getting the fuck out of the south the right thing to do? That is the question!
Whether tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrages fortune or take arms against a sea of trouble... something about ending.
Shit. It all makes sense...
10:21 PM
Before you correct me, outrages = outrageous.
10:22 PM
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