It's not stupid, it's advanced

If I stop complaining, how can I pinpoint areas of my life that need improvement? Maybe it's not complaining so much as .. assessing. So when I say "God damn it, I need to stop working till 7PM so I can get some fucking sun and stop being such a pale bastard," that is entirely constructive. Or, "son of a bitch, I need to start drawing again instead of hanging out or sleeping all the time," it's just a reminder to myself. Unfortunately when I say these things and then don't actually do them, it loses its constructive potential and just turns into noise. Is there a word for this? Can potential energy, instead of converting to kinetic energy, simply dissipate? Wait, energy can't be destroyed. So where does it go!? Am I storing it?? Ooh, I hope that's the case.

FUN FACT: That all made sense to me as I was typing it.