Miercoles, miercoles, miercoles

When you sleep from 2 to 6 in the morning, and you wake up every hour feeling like you overslept, does that mean you have a caffeine addiction, a sleeping disorder, or just too much on your mind?

One of the main things weaving through my grey matter for the past few days is the fact that a lot of my favorite bands work day jobs. Before college, this was unfathomable to me, but now I'm surprised when I hear otherwise; I consider it to be a big deal when I hear that a band is able to live off their music alone. Recently I read an interview with Scott Kelly from Neurosis (little hearts float around my head as I type this), and he was putting his own spin on that "once it becomes a job, you lose your love for it" saying .. for him, it has to be for the sake of the art itself and not because he depends on it.

I can see that. In general, it's better to do things because you want to, not because you have to, right?

The same goes for comics, I think. Since I mostly just read webcomics and not the kind you actually pay for, most of the artists I look up to do it just for the hell of it. A few of them are able to live off it, but that's more of a side effect than a goal for them.

The moral for me is, do what I want to do for the sake of doing it, not out of obligation or because I feel like I have to. It kind of takes the pressure off, but at the same time, it doesn't, because I feel like to not do so would be a waste.

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Anyway, I almost had a conniption last night when I thought I was talking to one of my good old friends from school online and he suddenly goes "You know what? I am sick and tired of you. Leave me alone." I sort of laughed it off at first but it didn't sound like he was joking, so I asked if he was and he told me I'd done something to seriously piss him off. My mind absolutely reeled, and I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep until I found out what was up, but then it turned out to be some random dude signed on under my friend's name on a community computer at some hotel. Jackass!!

At last but not least, I give up on Merchant of Venice, because it's just not interesting to me. Too much anti-semitism, not enough killing or gender confusion. On the other hand, it did make me want to re-read MacBeth, or maybe The Tragedy of Hirio and His Man, which is a hard one to find. Fie, fie!!