Bootscraper

What were you doing a year ago? I hadn't even started working at Ferrotec in Nashua yet (ahh, that was a pretty good job, good thing I blew that one) .. I'm pretty sure I hadn't even gone to the Temp place yet, which means I was spending my days posting resumes online, and my evenings playing darts/going to Planet Fitness (best gym EVER)/watching Adult Swim con el Frank. I was broke but it was still fun ..

Anyway, I can take comfort in the fact that no matter what happens I'll be doing something probably drastically different at this time next year, too. I'll either be in Japan working my ass off and actually enjoying it, or .. hmm, Option 2 is still undecided, but I can assure myself it'll have little or nothing to do with Wiring Harnesses.

Speaking of which, I'm reaching a pretty bad place here. I thought it was bad a few months ago when I stopped caring, and slightly worse when I stopped caring that it was obvious that I didn't care. Now I've reached a new stage, some "high level not-caring," where I genuinely feel bad about it when I have a good day here. I actually feel guilty about it when I do a good job at something, because I'm not supposed to be conforming to this place, I'm supposed to be plotting my escape! I had a pretty good day recently, I forget why, and afterwards I was like "maybe this place isn't so bad after al--SHIT NO! DON'T GIVE IN!"

I'm not actually very worried about accidentally falling into line and liking this place. Everyone here annoys me too much. I won't let 1 good day per month change my mind! Flags of dissent: FLY!!